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July, 2010

  1. Blonde Armed

    July 30, 2010 by Blondette

    Oh yes, tomorrow I am attending a class to get my concealed carry permit/license in the State of Missouri.

    Be afraid.

    There might be renditions (okay, severe karaoke butchering) of Aerosmith’s Janie’s Got a Gun.

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  2. I really enjoy…

    July 30, 2010 by Blondette

    the sight of bright yellow stripes on the road against wet pavement.

    carry on

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  3. July 29, 2010 by Blondette

    Until yesterday, I’d never cried on an airplane. In fact, I try to keep crying, particularly crying in public, to a minimum. It embarrasses me and the shame and awkwardness I feel is just unnecessary when I already feel shame and awkwardness due to my weight. I went through a phase where nothing reached me and I simply did not feel that burning leap that comes with the rush of whatever happy or sad emotion generates the crying response. And then it was back. And it was really back. So back that very small things would bubble up. In fact, I can’t card shop at Hallmark these days without welling up (I’m not kidding here, just so you know.)

    On that flight I came to realize that I’m depressed. Officially and completely, depressed. The signs and symptoms have been around for months, but I’ve been trying to slog through them and for whatever reason, I am simply no longer able to “slog.” If I’m not sad, I’m angry. If I’m not angry, I’m anxious. I have no motivation to keep a clean house or make myself presentable. It’s some sort of miracle that I’ve kept any momentum on eating healthier and exercising given my motivation issues. I can only hope this means that the worst has come and I’m pulling out of the trance because I’m doing something to save myself.

    So now, I look to my family, friends, God, and I turn inward…and I take Xanax.

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  4. Breakin It Down

    July 22, 2010 by Blondette

    I am the queen of analogies.

    Not only have I compared things to parfait, cholesterol, cars, and really fat people on ice skates,  but I’ve done it AND people have gotten a better understanding of whatever I was trying to explain.

    Just thought you should know.

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  5. Review: Best Friends Forever

    July 18, 2010 by Blondette

    Best Friends ForeverBest Friends Forever by Jennifer Weiner
    My rating: 3 of 5 stars

    It took me a while to get into this book. I wasn’t sure about the plot and then I struggled with a character with whom I too closely identified. My life and struggles do not compare to Addie’s but I dealt with them in very much the same manner. HOT…APPLE…PIE for me was when I got on an airplane and couldn’t buckle my seat belt. I’ve flown fatter, but let’s face it, that’s pretty sad. I thought maybe it was a fluke, but sure enough, it happened again. On a little puddle jumper, a stewardess caught me not able to buckle and leaned over and very stoically asked, “do you need an extender?” “Yes, please.”And that was my moment. Adding Jordan was something I couldn’t decide if I liked or found cheesy. I wanted Addie to find someone, but really? And it was a little too perfect that she was pregnant. Overall, I felt like it was a little contrived and could have focused more on the actual best friends. However, I did sort of like seeing everything wrapped up in a nice package.No matter what struggles I had with the plot, I still love Weiner’s writing style and her ability create interesting characters. Once I got into the book, I genuinely wanted to finish it.

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